Tuesday, March 15, 2011

This too, shall pass.

Let’s see if I can remember how to do this....
Deep breath!
Another.... Now breathe normal and relax.

I don’t know how to really start this, except to say I’m not dead, or in jail. Psychically I’m fair. Mentally... Well let’s just say that’s where my problem is staying for a extended vacation.

I’ve started so many different stories and thoughts, but I’ve been unable to finish any of them. I tell myself I can write, if I would only focus. But my words get lost before they find their way onto the pages for others to see. 

When I first started this blog, I would walk around all day thinking about what I should write about. Back then, everything was blog material. I could see stories every where I looked. Now, my mind feels absolute blankness. The images are no longer there. I don’t see the story behind the man or woman as they move along with their daily life. Without meaning. It’s as if we are all nothing more than fake images on a computer screen.

It feels pointless to try and change. Why? For what reason should I continue? I’ve been a nobody all my life and I’m sure that’s who I will continue to be. Then I saw this quote the other day....

Don't let your past dictate your future, but let your past be part of what you become.

Deep breath again!... And again...

I enjoy writing. But to return, I have to take care of a few obsessive compulsive behaviors that I have been letting run my life for about the past year. I have to get it under control now that it has reached a peak. If I don’t control it now, it will forever control me. And that’s not the path I want to walk on.

I will return soon. Thanks everyone for hanging around.

This too, shall pass...

4 comments:

Midnitefyrfly said...

I am in such a similar place. I hope I make it back on the blogging wagon, but I have been so distracted with life and hard times. I hope to see you back too.

Anonymous said...

Ok, I'll be waiting
your writings are amazing.

Coffeypot said...

waiting

JL Stratton said...

Go, make it better. But, please, come back when you can. I'll be waiting patiently for your triumpant return!